But anyway, I'm here now. :)
I shared in my last post that I have a dream of adopting children and what I believe is a calling to write. In my mind, the two were never really connected; adoption is what I wanted to do, and writing is what God made me do. One I've wanted almost my entire life; the other I've had to wrestle with and grow to love. The way I saw it, mother and writer were simply two of the many roles I felt led to play in this thing called life.
Last spring, however, as I was grappling with the reality that my current situation makes adoption all but impossible, God kept nudging me to, you guessed it...write. Unfortunately, it's been my habit to do so only when I feel inspired, need to process something, or have an upcoming Sunday school class to prepare for, but this time He wouldn't let it go. In an effort to be obedient and seek direction, I blogged (on a separate site) every day during Lent. 39 posts later, I was still just as clueless as I was when I started.
Fast forward six months to our current small-group study. We're studying Mark Batterson's The Circle Maker* and talking a lot about our dreams. Once again, I sat there praying God, what do I need to be doing to make this happen? Wouldn't you know that one word kept popping into my head, the same quiet whisper no matter how many times I asked...
Write. Write. Write.
Two days later I sat down for some serious God time. And in no uncertain terms, He let me know that it was time to get my butt in gear, specifically regarding a discussion guide for A Year of Biblical Womanhood* that I'd started writing for my high school girls, but never got around to finishing. Let me tell you, I've done more work on that in the last five weeks than I had in the last five months! I've had people tell me numerous times that I needed to think about publishing my Sunday school curriculum units, and now that God's lit a fire under me, I'm beginning to pursue that as best I can, although at this point it's only involving a lot of editing.
Do I have any idea how writing curriculums relates to adoption? Nope. Not a one. There are some obvious possibilities like publishing and making money and building a side business that could support a family... but knowing God, the path probably won't be that straight. It's more likely that He'll take this small act of obedience and use it to open a door I've never even considered. All I know is that I've been given a task, an opportunity. And even if I don't see a relationship between these two very different things in my heart, it's time to let Him connect the dots.
Fast forward six months to our current small-group study. We're studying Mark Batterson's The Circle Maker* and talking a lot about our dreams. Once again, I sat there praying God, what do I need to be doing to make this happen? Wouldn't you know that one word kept popping into my head, the same quiet whisper no matter how many times I asked...
Write. Write. Write.
Two days later I sat down for some serious God time. And in no uncertain terms, He let me know that it was time to get my butt in gear, specifically regarding a discussion guide for A Year of Biblical Womanhood* that I'd started writing for my high school girls, but never got around to finishing. Let me tell you, I've done more work on that in the last five weeks than I had in the last five months! I've had people tell me numerous times that I needed to think about publishing my Sunday school curriculum units, and now that God's lit a fire under me, I'm beginning to pursue that as best I can, although at this point it's only involving a lot of editing.
Do I have any idea how writing curriculums relates to adoption? Nope. Not a one. There are some obvious possibilities like publishing and making money and building a side business that could support a family... but knowing God, the path probably won't be that straight. It's more likely that He'll take this small act of obedience and use it to open a door I've never even considered. All I know is that I've been given a task, an opportunity. And even if I don't see a relationship between these two very different things in my heart, it's time to let Him connect the dots.
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