I know this may come as a newsflash to some of you, but life can be crazy.
Obligations pile up.
Kids get sick.
Money doesn't come through.
And you know what? I'm powerless to fix any of it.
The last few weeks have sought to knock me down and highlight my inadequacy, and it's taken all I've had just to keep my head above the water. In just about every area of my life, I've been reminded that I'm not strong enough... not smart enough... and just plain ol' not good enough.
But do you know what else I've been reminded of?
I'm never going to be enough, and that's okay.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him. With him is only the army of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and fight our battles." And the people gained confidence from what Hezekiah the king of Judah said. 2 Chronicles 32:7-8
All we see is what's right in front of us. The fears. The doubts. The dashed hopes and shattered dreams. And we see the army charging toward us, closing in with every failed attempt to make things right. And while it's natural to want to cling to what we can see and hear and touch, it's the unseen that counts. It's the power of the Spirit within us that heals and strengthens and overcomes. Not us.
We are but flesh; He is Almighty.
Recognizing our humanity, knowing that we don't have to carry the burdens of life alone, is when freedom starts. So what if I don't know what I'm doing? So what if I don't have all the answers? So what if this is all too hard for me to do on my own? I don't have to fight this battle.
And the good news is that I was never meant to.
God knew the things this world would throw at me, and yet He chose to make me with weaknesses and inadequacies because He knew that those things would be what would save me from myself. If He'd given me power and knowledge and answers, I'd rush head first into every plan my brain could conjure up, and I'd end up so far off the path He wants to me walk that there'd be no way of getting back. As it is, I'm afraid to take a step without asking Him first because I know darn good and well that I don't know where I'm going. It's great! It's freeing! It's what saves me when things get crazy.
So while the last few weeks have reminded me that I'm not good enough to succeed on my own, I have an undeniable peace resonating through my soul. Every inadequacy I face is met with His power. And in light of Him, the One who is my Everything, my nothingness becomes just that...
Whatever battles you're facing, whatever fights you're trying to win on your own... won't you let Him take over? You'll never be enough to conquer it, but never forget that there's One who is.